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The One Last Hey!

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To think I had the most of you, After all that you put me through. What exactly did you want from me? Was I not enough, or was there another "she"?   I sit here still, contemplating what we had, At least I met you, and for that, I’m always glad. Yet sometimes, I wish our paths had never crossed, Maybe then, I wouldn’t feel so lost .   It seems destiny had its role to play, You and I weren’t meant to stay. Perhaps “right person, wrong time” is true, Your silence still stings like blood and lime, do.   You made me meet your family and friends, I never thought  that here, it all ends. Of all the times we had in the dark, To me, it was always the brightest, full of spark.   You were the light, you always have been, The love I had for you was never seen. If you'd let me, I would’ve bled dry, Letting you go—my hardest goodbye.   I hope that someday we’ll meet with intend, For one last "Hey!"—long overdue, my friend. I’d remind you of that day, if yo...

Love the hell out of you!

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Come to me if you ever feel alone, Or I'll come to you, wherever we've flown. For love is not a path only you can pursue, If you let me, darling, I'll show a vivid hue. To cherish you, as you, was effortlessly done, You stand out amongst them, second to none. They came crying for my attention and love, While I was busy loving you, lifting you above. "Would you still love me at my worst?" "Love you at your worst", always comes first. To love you through your brightest days and dark, Not every love must bear a painful mark. Loving you ran through my veins like a river, Of boundless love and mysteries yet to deliver. Being with you felt like a home in human form, Where echoes of two hearts make this place warm. Warm like your breath on a winter's Sunday, That feels comfortable in the way you say, That I'm all yours and you're all mine, Like roots in earth, our souls intertwine. Your love is something that makes me believe, Why I’ve always worn m...

Rumi

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So many faces, so many minds, Yet none with whom my soul entwines. Perhaps it is you—the one I may call mine, Or should I wait for the stars to realign? But never have I met a mind so rare, A smile so tender, a gaze so debonair. Should I silence this ache before it begins, Or surrender once more to love’s cruel whims? Older I am, if only by years, Yet time bows not to age, nor to fears. We stand not where spring's blossoms unfurl, And I do not wish to claim or be claimed, my girl. Meeting him felt like a whisper of fate, A love from before—patient, innate. Since that moment, his shadow lingers, Perhaps I am bound by karma’s fingers. And here I write of you and me, Not as Donne’s Flea, nor love's decree. I seek no pretense, no grand display, But a verse to echo Rumi’s way. As now I feel a sudden shift in the weather, Happy is the moment when we sit together, With two forms, two faces, yet one soul, you and I. Your talks and laughs sound like a lullaby. - Taruna Ghera.

Let him go

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When the eyes meet across the room, It all feels like spring and flowers bloom. Is this what they mean by butterflies? Loving someone comes with a huge price.   Being unaware of God's plans, Not once did I pray with joined hands. Maybe that's why I am here crying in my room, Spring never came, and the flowers didn't bloom.   Perhaps it was more than just our fate, Perhaps I was nothing more than bait. Or perhaps, in love, heartbreak is the price. For you needed more, and I couldn't suffice.   So, here I am writing about us, smiling, While the endless memories started dialing, The moments we've had, once, together, Loving you in silence was lighter than a feather.   Now you're just a shadow of time long gone, Yet, like dusk, I'll recall you with every dawn, And when at night I miss you and those lullabies, My face has a smile, but my heart always cries.   Maybe someday my mind will let this all go, When my heart smiles, my face might cry though, Of the heartb...

Watercolor eyes

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Oh! Here it is, again, Left me with hope and in vain. To say that all is well,  I still remember those eyes and the smell. Oh! Here it is, again, Left me with hope and in vain. To say that it was a one-time thing,  Like lemon and blood, your love sting. Oh dear! I found myself thinking, How would it feel to stop sinking, Into the memories and the long wait, Didn't expect this to be my fate. Now that it is here again,  Full of hope, love and pain. The tears are not just salty water, But echoes of dreams left to falter. Dreams like sipping coffee beside you, All along I didn't have a clue,  That it's not always what it seems,  To be with you was all in my dreams.   Perhaps, one day I'll find the key, Where you and I, both, will agree. That my heart is where your heart lies, Yet you left me with watercolor eyes. - Taruna Ghera.

Did we make it?

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It's 2025! A whole year has passed by and yet, it still feels like yesterday, doesn't it? One good thing about the new year is we get to crack the same old joke again, "I'll see you next year", on the night of 31st December and the fact that no one even gets mad at it makes it relatable even more.  As the laughter fades, though, it’s worth pausing to think about what the new year truly means for everyone. Did we really make it to a "new year", or is it just a moment where people share their achievements and reflect on what they could afford to do? Well, it's good to have achieved things you have always wanted to, but before sharing it with anyone, pause for a moment and think of all the times you were still stuck somewhere, and your peers were achieving the things you once wished to. Is it fair to overlook those still struggling to make sense of life, survival, and existence? While it's wonderful to celebrate personal victories, it's equally ...

back AT it :P

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There are certain days you wish would never end—like a birthday, for instance. Imagine if such a day could stretch to 72 hours, packed with endless joy, cherished memories, and all the things that make you feel truly alive. These are the moments that remind us of the essence of living—a sense of fulfillment, a discovery of something we didn’t even know we were seeking, a glimpse of life at its most vibrant. But here’s the thing: while I could write about these feelings endlessly—and trust me, I have, more times than I can count—I keep coming back to one question: how much is too much? Is there ever a limit to expressing something you love purely with all your heart and soul? Does talking about it, sharing it, and writing about it over and over somehow dilute its meaning? Maybe the answer lies not in how often we express it, but in how deeply it resonates each time. If the emotion is genuine, its meaning doesn’t fade—it evolves, adding new layers of understanding and connection. After ...

Choose wisely!

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Today felt like any other day. I woke up, made myself  the-specifically-accurate-proportion-of-coffee-sugar-mix, logged  into my laptop and got ready to type. But just as I was about to press the first letter, something unusual struck me: I remembered something. Now, that's rare for me—remembering something, especially a  dream . Even more unusual was the fact that this dream involved my one constant friend, the person I turn to for everything from minor inconveniences to major dilemmas. The beauty of student life is that you don’t have to report to anyone at a fixed time. So, with that luxury in mind, I picked up my phone and called him. I narrated the dream, and soon, we were laughing hysterically. It was one of those laughs that stays with you, even after the conversation ends.  As we both returned to our routines, I noticed something lingering—a smile on my face. It wasn't intentional or conscious, but it was there, a testament to the joy of having someone who ...

But it's not about the train

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One thing I have realized over the years, being impatiently impatient and wanting to get the results immediately after accomplishing a certain task, that no matter what you do, with how much dedication you put into it, you will see the results when they're meant to be seen. No other force in this world, nor you could take things under your control and make them happen. This realization didn’t come easy. I have, like most of us, found myself frustrated, questioning why my hard work didn’t yield instant outcomes. It felt as though the universe was ignoring my effort. But with time, I learned to see the bigger picture—that every action sets things in motion, but the outcomes align with a timeline greater than my own. It’s like planting a seed; no matter how much water or sunlight you provide, the seed will sprout only when it’s ready. Well, this wasn't a thought that struck me over night. Perhaps, one of the ideas that gave birth to this realization was the fact that I always end ...

What will you wish for?

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"अगर सब कुछ मिल जाएगा ज़िन्दगी में तो तमन्ना किसकी करोगे , कुछ अधूरी ख़्वाहिशें ही तो ज़िन्दगी जीने का मज़ा देती हैं "             "  If you attain everything in life, what will you wish for, It is the unfulfilled desires that make life worth living " Human desires are as boundless as the stars in the night sky, ever-expanding and evolving with time. From the dawn of civilization, our ancestors sought fire to keep warm and food to satiate their hunger. Yet, as these basic needs were met, the horizon of our wishes widened—reaching for comfort, knowledge, power, love, and purpose. What makes human wants infinite is their deeply rooted connection to our emotions, ambitions, and ever-curious nature. Once we achieve something we once craved, the satisfaction is fleeting, and a new desire takes its place. A child dreams of toys, a student yearns for success, an adult strives for stability, and the elderly seek peace—but beneath these desires lies...

Our story, our ending.

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The thing about stories is that when you read them, you often find echoes of your own life within them. That's how a story truly comes alive—through the uncanny resemblances that compel you to picture it in your mind, like a film rolling before your eyes. The only difference being that it stars a version of you, shaped by your imagination, an essence of you. Does that mean you can reshape it as you wish? It does, doesn’t it? But here’s the catch—it’s written by someone else. It’s a strange feeling, isn’t it? Watching a film play out in your own imagination, only to remember that its script belongs to another. So, how does one create a film thought and written purely by their own? Well, the answer is still to be found. Maybe the answer lies in being brave enough to listen to your own thoughts. To take your experiences, feelings, and dreams and turn them into a story that feels truly yours. It sounds easy, doesn’t it? But it’s not. Writing your own story means looking inside yourse...

Maybe I'll write about it.

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What do I write about?  I kept questioning myself and patiently waited for my mind to speak up.   I thought I should go take a stroll in the metro the other day, for I was struggling to shape my feelings and thoughts into coherent words that could capture the chaos within me. There was a discomfort—a gnawing uneasiness, like sensing a subtle shift in the air. It was uncomfortable, not being able to express myself was making me uncomfortable.   What do I write about, now that I have let you go from the only place I was able to think. Like when, while sending an email, if the subject field is blank, the system refuses to send the email, or it asks you 'if you still want to send the email anyway'. Well, i t’s pretty cold in here. I leaned over my laptop screen, still finding it difficult to enter the world of wonderment. I rubbed my hands to generate some heat in the palms as I realized my fingers started typing these words, this random gush of words that came through as soo...

The Art of Fading Away

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People, places, and things I keep them so close, yet they feel so far .  Although everything is perishable and comes with a shelf life, we still have a special place for certain things. It’s almost paradoxical how something can exist within arm’s reach but feel worlds apart. Does this attachment make you materialistic? Or does it make you “too emotional”? What does it make you then? No one has a definite answer, because deep down, we all know it’s a paradox we live with every day. It’s not just about material things. It’s about what they represent—memories, emotions, connections. A worn-out book isn’t just paper and ink; it’s the comfort of late-night reading, the escape into another world. A favorite t-shirt isn’t just a piece of cloth; it’s the comfort of it being worn so many times by the person you somewhere hold so close to you and the moments you have spent with your loved ones. These things are more than their physical selves; they are symbols of moments, feelings, and piece...

The Habit of Us

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  Here I am, writing about us, which once started with writing only about you. The poems, the random things I have written, though nothing was done “randomly”, it was all out of either overflowing emotions or just mere aggression or the urge to hold on my feelings for too long. I still remember the day I fell ill, a day spent in tears, yet paradoxically filled with inspiration. I wrote 7 poems that day, all born from the “random” gush of feelings that came and went soon after I penned them down.    As if, those feelings were desperate to jump out of me to release on the paper just to give a voice to  themselves. I thought it will be easier for me to write about you. But here I am, looking at the cursor while it flashes, thinking about the most appropriate word to start my next sentence with. Ah! The urge to sound sensible. I feel like I am at a stage of conflict between intention and execution. I thought writing about someone so dear would be easier, straightforwar...

The Speaking Mug 💜

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She woke up at quarter to eight, yearning to fall back asleep as soon as her mother walked out of her room. There I was, hanging in the kitchen on the rack, thinking she was coming to pick me up. But instead, she chose her other favorite, the one she uses for her warm water. It's been a week since I am hanging here. It is t rue that I'm glad she isn't used to drinking coffee every day, but I'm also saddened about the fact that she didn't even come to say hello to me. or could have just come to wash away the dirt off of me, maybe!? Today, she finally chose me, poured in me some warm milk, mixed in 2 tablespoons of coffee, 1 tablespoon of sugar, and 5 tablespoons of water, which she considers the ideal proportions for her "perfect coffee" as she enjoys it frothy and foamy. You might be curious about how I know the specifics of her perfect coffee. Well, I overheard her sharing these details with her mother. She also mentioned that she prefers to sip it from...

Urgh! It’s you again.

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  Urgh! It’s you again. So, I finally thought I had freed myself from the mental chaos that had been clouding my mind, making me see and believe in things that were never truly there. It felt like I had been trapped in an airtight container of confusion and illusions, that even after so many years of not opening it, it is constantly blurring the line between reality and my own distorted perceptions. For a second, I thought I had found clarity, considering the calmness in there (mind), but it seems the chaos was never entirely gone, only lurking beneath the surface, ready to pull me back into its trap. Urgh! It’s you again. That familiar, uninvited presence that jumps up on me when I least expect it. No matter how hard I try to push it away, it finds its way back, as if it's been waiting in the shadows, just out of sight. I thought I had escaped it, thought I had finally silenced its whispers, but here it is, back to disrupt my thoughts and unsettle my peace. It’s like an unwanted...

It's okay, go ahead.

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  It's okay, go ahead.   It’s 5 in the evening. I got a call from my boss, probably she wants to assign me some work which I am not at all interested in doing. I came back home as I wasn’t feeling well. I went to the hospital but didn’t find a suitable doctor who could cure my disease. I had an asthma attack. Not a major one, just couldn’t breathe properly. But my other senses are working. Yes! Of course they are. My eyes are working, I can see properly, I can even talk even though I am having a hard time breathing. It was just an asthma attack. Now I feel like I shouldn’t have acted that way. Anyway, I laid down and eventually fell asleep. I might have missed a few important calls, you know it, intentionally majorly, lol. Was it really just an asthma attack? Or was it something that I didn’t understand and might be obscuring from it? “If I had known, I would have known, wouldn’t I?", said a voice in me. Phew! These voices. It’s been a week since I am in the hospital, s...

27 days with her.

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“In the middle of winter, I found there was, within me, an invincible summer.” For a long time, I thought I knew her. She was perpetually smiling, spreading happiness, and bolstering others' self-confidence. Yet, I was oblivious to the fact that these were the very things she yearned for herself—a deeper comprehension from someone. I thought I knew her. Indeed, she harbored dreams, not of acquiring cars or a grand house. Her aspirations soared beyond what anyone could envision. She didn't dream of a life of luxury or pricey branded clothes. Instead, she dreamed of a life that made waking up each morning worthwhile, greeted by the birds' songs, the first sound she wished to hear, the fresh air she longed to breathe upon opening her window, and just enough money to satisfy daily needs. She has always shown kindness to the right people, those who live true to their nature, even if they are often oblivious to their own deeds. But somewhere along the way, I realized that the per...

Hello genius people!

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  " Coffee beans ,   tall greens  and  you ..." You know that feeling when you go to sleep with a mind full of voices telling you to shut up and then the constant war of you telling those voices to do the same. But then, that very moment, there comes a feeling of  d rifting from nothingness into the fullness of thoughts, which is like standing on the edge of a still, vast ocean at dawn. At first, there’s a calm emptiness—a blank canvas of the mind where no particular idea takes shape. It’s a moment of weightlessness, where your thoughts seem suspended, like air just before the first breeze. And then with that feeling, everything, that seemed heavy, useless and uncomforting starts to feel light, useful and so much comforting.  Well, this morning was somewhat like that but with a pinch of paradoxes mixed in it. I thought, "Oh wow! there comes this ease in the air I breathe, and I can finally be going places from now on". But nooooo!! My mind and I have this s...