Taruna Ghera

  Urgh! It’s you again. So, I finally thought I had freed myself from the mental chaos that had been clouding my mind, making me see and believe in things that were never truly there. It felt like I had been trapped in an airtight container of confusion and illusions, that even after so many years of not opening it, it is constantly blurring the line between reality and my own distorted perceptions. For a second, I thought I had found clarity, considering the calmness in there (mind), but it seems the chaos was never entirely gone, only lurking beneath the surface, ready to pull me back into its trap. Urgh! It’s you again. That familiar, uninvited presence that jumps up on me when I least expect it. No matter how hard I try to push it away, it finds its way back, as if it's been waiting in the shadows, just out of sight. I thought I had escaped it, thought I had finally silenced its whispers, but here it is, back to disrupt my thoughts and unsettle my peace. It’s like an unwanted...

  It's okay, go ahead.   It’s 5 in the evening. I got a call from my boss, probably she wants to assign me some work which I am not at all interested in doing. I came back home as I wasn’t feeling well. I went to the hospital but didn’t find a suitable doctor who could cure my disease. I had an asthma attack. Not a major one, just couldn’t breathe properly. But my other senses are working. Yes! Of course they are. My eyes are working, I can see properly, I can even talk even though I am having a hard time breathing. It was just an asthma attack. Now I feel like I shouldn’t have acted that way. Anyway, I laid down and eventually fell asleep. I might have missed a few important calls, you know it, intentionally majorly, lol. Was it really just an asthma attack? Or was it something that I didn’t understand and might be obscuring from it? “If I had known, I would have known, wouldn’t I?", said a voice in me. Phew! These voices. It’s been a week since I am in the hospital, s...

“In the middle of winter, I found there was, within me, an invincible summer.” For a long time, I thought I knew her. She was perpetually smiling, spreading happiness, and bolstering others' self-confidence. Yet, I was oblivious to the fact that these were the very things she yearned for herself—a deeper comprehension from someone. I thought I knew her. Indeed, she harbored dreams, not of acquiring cars or a grand house. Her aspirations soared beyond what anyone could envision. She didn't dream of a life of luxury or pricey branded clothes. Instead, she dreamed of a life that made waking up each morning worthwhile, greeted by the birds' songs, the first sound she wished to hear, the fresh air she longed to breathe upon opening her window, and just enough money to satisfy daily needs. She has always shown kindness to the right people, those who live true to their nature, even if they are often oblivious to their own deeds. But somewhere along the way, I realized that the per...

  " Coffee beans ,   tall greens  and  you ..." You know that feeling when you go to sleep with a mind full of voices telling you to shut up and then the constant war of you telling those voices to do the same. But then, that very moment, there comes a feeling of  d rifting from nothingness into the fullness of thoughts, which is like standing on the edge of a still, vast ocean at dawn. At first, there’s a calm emptiness—a blank canvas of the mind where no particular idea takes shape. It’s a moment of weightlessness, where your thoughts seem suspended, like air just before the first breeze. And then with that feeling, everything, that seemed heavy, useless and uncomforting starts to feel light, useful and so much comforting.  Well, this morning was somewhat like that but with a pinch of paradoxes mixed in it. I thought, "Oh wow! there comes this ease in the air I breathe, and I can finally be going places from now on". But nooooo!! My mind and I have this s...